Of CoUrSe I'm OuT Of My MiNd...It'S DaRk & ScArY In ThErE!

Please look at this survey as well as the one for the 24th of August.

FIVE YEARS AGO...2001

How old were you?


Where did you go to school?


Where did you live?


Where did you hang out?

How was your hair style?


Did you wear glasses?:


Who was your best friend?:


Who was your regular-person crush?:

How many tattoos did you have?:


How many piercings did you have?:


What car did you drive?:

What was your worst fear?:


Had you smoked a cigarette yet?:


Had you been arrested?


Had your heart broken?


Single/Taken/Married/Divorced/Bitter:


LETS SEE WHAT YOU ARE NOW !!!!!

August 2006

How old are you?:


Where do you work?


Where do you live?:


Where do you hang out?


Do you wear glasses?

What is your hairstyle?


Who are your best friends?

Still talk to any of your old friends?

Who is your current interest?


How many tattoos?:


What kind of car do you have?:


What is your biggest fear?:


Have you been arrested since if so how many
times total?:


Has your heart been broken?:

Single/Taken/Married/Divorced/Bitter:

Here's some fun surveys to answer:

Can you remember some of these answers?

1. Who was your first prom date?


2. Who was your first roommate?


3. What alcoholic beverage did you drink when you got drunk the first time?


4. What was your first job?


6. When did you go to your first funeral?


7. How old were you when you first moved away from your hometown?


8. Who was your first grade teacher?


9. Where did you go on your first ride on an airplane?


10. When you snuck out of your house for the first time, who was it with?


11. Who was your first best friend and are you still friends with them?


12. Where did you live the first time you moved out of your house?


13. Who is the first person you call when you have a bad day?


14. Who's wedding were you in the first time you were a bridesmaid or a groomsmen?


15. What is the first thing you do in the morning?


16. What was the first concert you ever went to?


17. First tattoo or piercing??


18. First celebrity crush?


19. Age of first kiss?

20. First love?

The average person only gets 7 right.

This is based on U.S. info, so use all lobes of your brain. This can be more difficult than it looks - it just shows how little most of us really see!

There are 25 questions about things we see every day or have
known about all our lives. How many can you get right?
These little simple questions are harder than you think-- it just
shows you how little we pay attention to the commonplace
things of life.

Put your thinking caps on. No cheating! No looking around! No
getting out of your chair! No using anything on or in your desk or
computer!

Can you beat 15?? It is nearly impossible for any normal person to get higher than a 15 (The average is 7).


REMEMBER - NO CHEATING!!! BE HONEST!!! That means no looking at your phone or anything on your desk...

LET'S JUST SEE HOW OBSERVANT YOU REALLY ARE. - If not, just
have fun!

To get The Answers, IM Me & I will Send them to you.


Here we go!


1. On a standard traffic light, is the green on the top or bottom?


2. How many states are there in the USA? (Don't laugh, some
people don't know)

3. In which hand is the Statue of Liberty's torch?

4. What six colors are on the classic Campbell's soup label?

5. What two numbers on the telephone dial don't have letters by
them?

6. When you walk does your left arm swing with your right or left
leg? (Don't you dare get up to see!)


7. How many matches are in a standard pack?


8. On the United States flag is the top stripe red or white?


9. What is the lowest number on the FM dial?


10. Which way does water go down the drain, counter or clockwise?


11. Which way does a "no smoking" sign's slash run?


12. How many channels on a VHF TV dial?


13. On which side of a women's blouse are the buttons?


14. Which way do fans rotate?


15. How many sides does a stop sign have?


16. Do books have even-numbered pages on the right or left
side?


17. How many lug nuts are on a standard car wheel?


18. How many sides are there on a standard pencil?



19. Sleepy, Happy, Sneezy, Grumpy, Dopey, Doc. Who's missing?


20. How many hot dog buns are in a standard package?


21. On which playing card is the card maker's trademark?


22. On which side of a Venetian blind is the cord that adjusts
the opening between the slats?


23. There are 12 buttons on a touch tone phone. What 2 symbols bear no digits?



24. How many curves are there in the standard paper clip?



25. Does a merry-go-round turn counter or clockwise?

It's about 3:40 in the morning and I'm still awake. Why? I don't even know. I'm realizing that maybe I should have made my career choice in computers instead of the health care field. I've been on the damn computer all day and I just finished changing my LJ page again and my Myspace page. I'm crazy, but I get bored with things too easily. I also got some really good icons from myspace and saved them on my computer so I could switch them up every once in a while. BTW I saved some for you ramdom_insights & _sushiflower that I thought you guys might like. So let me know and I'll email them to you. Miss Ya & Love Ya!

That's going to be all for me till Wednesday cause I'm leaving to go to upstate tomorrow. Hope everyone has a Safe & Happy 4th Of July!

I hate the rain, today is one of those days that you just want to stay in bed and watch tv. It's been muggy, damp, rainy,and just nasty all day and you can't really do anything in this weather. The funny thing is that as bad as the weather is today, I actually feel alittle better. I don't really have much to say today, because I haven't done anything all day but stare at the computer looking for something to do. I usually go upstate for the weekend, but not this weekend. Tomorrow is the Trophy Ceremony for Bowling, there having a family and friends get together from 7-11 pm; so that's were I'll be. Sucks that we won't be getting a trophy, but at least we'll get the money.


Have A Good Weekend Everybody!

I had to go for a physical today at OLM(Our Lady Of Mercy)for a job that I already had before. These people are no joke, I had to take a physical, drug test, hazardous materials test, blood test, and How to apply a safety mask test. I felt like a fucking lab rat. PEOPLE it's not that serious. I have been working in that department since August of last year, and still I have to go through all this shit just to switch positions. Once they finish animal testing me, I have to go to Human Resources. Here I ask to speak to the manager and he takes me to a room, sits me down, and tells me "Here, fill these out and call me when your done." 2 hours later(yes, there were about 100 pages for me to fill out)I finally got up and handed him the papers. They took a copy of my license, social security card, and (an you believe this)they even made me sign a paper saying that I give them the ok to have a criminal and credit check on me!!!!!!! Is this a job for a hospital or THE FUCKING CIA! For all this I better get the freaking job.

The torture continues on Monday when I have to go in for PPD shots and then June 12 for orientation at 8 in the fucking morning. I have to sit in that room from 8-5 to listen to morons tell me about what to do in case of an emergency. Give me a fucking break, all that policy and procedures crap goes out the window in any job you work in once the shit happens. So back to being a lab rat it is!

Tuesday Afternoon...

For those of you that don't know my dad and ben are in a bowling league. They have been for the past 3 years. Tonight is the championship game to see what position they fall in. Since the team has had it's ups & downs lately we are in 5ht place going into the championship games. So I'm hoping they bring there A game tonight or else there's going to be serious hell to pay.

Tuesday Night...

OMFG...I'M SO FREAKIN PISSED RIGHT NOW....I CAN'T FREAKIN BELIEVE THIS SHIT!!! As you can tell I'm mad as hell right now. First of all with 15 teams to play in this league, we have to get stuck playing this fucking team of all nights that has 3 bowlers that bowl in the 200's. WTF! Needless to say ben, my dad, and the other team mates bowled ok, not great, not bad, but ok, so we were only able to take 1 game out of 3 from them. Even if they bowled above there average this team is really tough to beat.

The good thing is that we still stood in 5th place, the bad thing is that because we had the same score as the team we played, they tied with us for 5th place. Now in this situation what they do is add the 5th place money $600 per person and the 6th place money $550 per person and then divide it between the 2 teams. So the money they got wasn't that bad, but I wanted 1st place dammit! It was $1,300.00 per person. I guess there's always next year.

Ok so my deposition was a bust, a total fucking waste of time. After losing sleep over it the night before and stressing about it the day of, we get absolutely no where. I spent an hour and a half going over what to say and not to say with my lawyer, only to find out when the opposing lawyer comes in he's missing information and can not proceed with the deposition. Isn't he suppose to check his records for all that information before the deposition? WHAT A FUCKING LOSERRRRRRRRRRR! So now I have to wait another month or so before I get another court date. This freaking sucks! And to top that off, my lawyer told me that if we have to go to trial there's a 2 year waiting list for cases in the Bronx. OMFG! are u serious?

On a lighter note, I was able to postpone my 4th Jury Duty calling thanks to
Dr. Bansal(Orthopedic doctor) & Dr. Garg(Physical Therapist doctor). Man I Love You Guys.

Ok, for those of you who don't know my situation, here's my story.

I fell down the stairs in front of my building last year in April

of 2005. I broke my ankle and till date I still have problems with

it because of it. Not only did it set me back, but I feel behind on

school, internship, work, my career, my health, job opportunities, a

horrible summer with a cast and a brace and then April of 2006, surgery,

more set back, and another brace.


At first I didn't think about suing or getting a lawyer because I was

too busy trying to get better. But then after thinking about it and a

little push from my family I decided to get one. Well, it's been a

long journey with them and they have decided that my case was strong

enough to go to court and sue my building for negligence.



After a year and a month of back and fourth paper work and appointments,

I finally got a court date. Wednesday May 24, 2006 is that date. I am

scared shitless, I don't like to be put on the spot and I dont want to say

the wrong thing which will make me incriminate myself. I have to be there

an hour early at 9:00 a.m. for briefing from my lawyer and I guess he will

tell me what to say and not say. But I'm still scared. I feel like I'm

giving my life and all it's worthy to the court. So for me it's Dooms Day!

I hope all of this pays off in the long wrong. And I don't me pay off in

the literal sense. The money is the least of my worries. I just want to

get this part of my life over with and move on. Hopefully, something

will come out of this tomorrow and this won't take another couple of

years to be done with.


So wish me luck!

I just got home and this is how I feel--Blah..Blah..Blah..Blah..

Empty..Blah..Empty. I have nothing to say, my mind is talking and

has alot to say , but nothing comes out of my mouth except....._____!

What the hell is wrong with me? I have no feeling for anything or

anyone. How can you have thousands of things running through your

head but have nothing to say? I'm so fucking out of it. I think I

need to see a shrink or something.

Hey everyone, so I know that I haven't been a true Live Journal Member,

especially since I come and go every so often.....But this time I'm

really trying to get into it. So I've decided to share with you guys

a gallery of some pictures that I've taken. Now I'm not to crazy about

putting pictures on the internet, especially with all the weirdo's out

there so this gallery is only for friends of my journal. If your not

on my friends list-sorry I can't share-and if you are then I hope you

enjoy! My Gallery is called Pieces Of Me! Here's the link so you can

check it out----http://pics.livejournal.com/jayda26

I put pictures of people that are intimate to me so that's why I want

to keep it private. If the picture gets cut off when viewing click

on it so you can see it in full. Enjoy!

Ok people so last night I was browsing through live journal and ran

across a communtiy about chapstick addiction. To my amazement I

found out that there are alot of people like me out there, and yes

people I'm not crazy. I do have a problem and the first step is

admitting it. So anyone who reads this entry feel free to check

out my new journal in communites called chapstickfeind. Tell me

what you think on that journal. You might learn something new on

there especially.......finding if your one of use!!!!


CHAPSTICK RULES!!!!

It's been awhile again. Most of the time I sit at the computer

and can't think of anything good to write. Then last night

I read my last entry about the razor's edge and could not

believe that I wrote that, that those words came out of

my mouth. So I decided to write and update my journal today.

So much has gone on since then, I would need 20 journal's to

write in.

Right now I can't say that my life is good cause I'm in

an emotional and physical rut. I feel like my life is in shambles

and I don't know where it's going. So many things are going wrong

and I feel like as the days go by it gets worst or something

comes up. I feel like my life is at a stand still and I want

to move on forward but the people in it don't. I know not every

one has the same goals and priorities in life, but....

What is more important in life your priorities or your goals?

I don't know if I make to much out of things or if I

expect more in people then they do in me.....


Maybe that's my problem!

Hey everybody, I'm trying out something new with my webpage, so if you don't

understand it just give me some time to fix it. Is the writing to difficult to

understand or if i space it out is it easier to read?

I've decided that today would be my question day.

If you only had a couple of hours left to live and you could write a letter to someone(please exclude your parents and kids, those are a giving), who would it be and what would be your last dying words to them in this letter?

It doesn't matter to me if your answer is short or long.

Nothing exciting really happened to me this weekend. I went out to eat
with some friends, went to a baby shower, watch the Gotti vs. Mayweather fight(I'm still crying over that fight), and just watched movies and chilled out.
I'm so tired of this stupid broken ankle, I can't do the things that I really
want to do.

Besides that I haven't worked for a couple of months and I feel like I'm
slowly forgetting everything I learned. Not to mention that my money is
slowly but surely diminishing. I don't know what I'm going to do about my
money situation and I don't want to borrow or ask anyone for handouts. I've
had my own money since I was 16 and now it feels weird not be able to splurge
on the things that I want. Plus, I don't need no one lending me the money and
then telling me how to spend it.

At the baby shower they played a name suggestion game, because the
mother-to-be can't come up with one. Does anybody have any suggestions? It's
a baby girl by the way. Any amount of suggestions will be gladly appreciated.

Before I tell everyone what the secret is, I want to thank everyone for

commenting on my entry. Well, the secret was that 2 years into there

relationship she cheated on him with someone in his family. The problem is

that the guy raped her and told her that no one would believe her. So she hid

it for awhile because she didn't want to cause problems with his family.

Finally she broke down and told him everything. He had to chose between his

family and her. Of course the guy denied it and said it was consensual, but

the guy had a rough time dealing with the situation. After some time he

decided to believe her and go against his family. When this secret came out on

Sunday, people thought he was going to react differently, but little did they

know that he already knew. So the secret that was meant to break them up, kept

them together. And in the end....he proposed and she said yes! Through thick

and thin.

I was suppose to go to a BBQ on Sunday, reason being that a friend of ours was

going to propose to his girlfriend. I didn't get to go, but found out some

really interesting news about the background of the girlfriend. She had a deep

dark secret that happened in her past and now came out and was haunting her.

My question is.....say you are with someone for a long time and you have a

deep dark secret that you have never told anyone. Can you continue on to be

with that person or spend the rest of your life with that person without

telling them this deep dark secret? This happened in your past before you met

your significant other and you had no control or fault in this secret. I've

heard people say before in order to be with someone for the rest of your life,

you must not have any secrets......Do you think that is necessarily true? Can

a relationship work even though there are still some skeleton's in your closet

that happened in your past? Can you blame the person for not saying anything

about it, reason being they are afraid that the person will leave them? Or do

you stick by the person no matter what there past is and leave it in the past?

I would like anyone's opinion on the question. After the answer's I will reveal

the secret with this person's permission and you can tell me if you think you

would stay with that person or leave and I will tell you what was the outcome

of the proposal!

Do you ever feel like every time you have something planned that you want to

do , it never works out that way? That's how's I'm feeling right now. First it

started with work, I was suppose to be finished with my internship in September

and then start saving money so I could move to Florida by the summer. That's

not going to happen, my dumb ass fell down the stairs and broke my ankle and

now my job has been pushed back and I won't finish until January. But hey, at

least I still have my wooden peg! Then my boyfriend finally get's a car(yes no

more cab's, I was about to become customer of the year with DAT.) But, a couple

of days of having it, someone throws a boulder at it breaks the window and

makes us miss our trip upstate. Damn! Just when you think things can't get any

worse, they do. I mean the car thing might not be that big of a deal to most

people but to me it is after the leg thing I can't go or do anything without

someone's help. So those are just a few things that have been going wrong in

the past 2 months. Believe me there are plenty other's but I'll be here till

Sunday telling you them. Please I'm not a Yankee's player and I don't like

curve balls! Balls did someone say Balls.....that's for you pumpkin.

It's funny that I found this icon for my page when I cant even say that it's

true. People come and go in your life, everyone know's that, but sometimes you

think that people will be there for you through thick and thin.....when

actually there not. Even family members that are always there when you dont

need them, disappear when you do need them. Right now I've been home for about

2 weeks because I fell down the stairs and broke my foot. I've been

thinking alot about things and how this world is and I come to realize that in

the 25 years that I have been in this world, I can say that I have no one to

show forth for it. Just when you think people cant get any crueler, they turn

around and kick you down even more. I have only one more thing to say, I dont

want smypathy from anyone, but for the person who has been there for

me.......Nothing in this world could replace the heart that you have opened up

for me.